Now, it's not about being scared to die, it's about not wanting to fail, even though something tells me that if I ever go out for war behind my parents' back and die a martyr, Allah will forgive me for it; I only fear that my family would forever live in guilt or regret--I don't want that to ever happen.
I don't know how right it is to actually not let go of your children, especially when they're girls, just because they will be harmed-so what's the point of going, huh? The point IS to sacrifice your soul for the country, the point is to be able to understand that freedom requires loss of souls, partial loss of happiness, loss of many pleasures, in order to deserve democracy.
I have already discussed with some friends the reasons behind parents' attitude since the 25th of January, and to sum up the whole thing, here are the main reasons:
- The typical Egyptian parent attitude of "enti bent w hatetbahdeli w tetma7aki fel regala, ed3elhom a7san".
- Stay around the neighborhood and protect your home first.
- Strictness: a much worse attitude.
- The pessimistic Egyptian parent: "elshabab elly henak de kollaha 3eyal seyya3, hatrou7i tet3aksi w teegi".
- And finally, the over-concern.
I'm done with my words, I just want every parent, who didn't let their children go, to know this: You have made a lot of sacrifices for your children, perhaps one of them should be letting your children go help write a new history, it really, really aches everyone who didn't go, and God knows if they'll ever wake up to witness a new change that they can participate in.
A torn-apart citizen who never got to be a protester.